So this is some kind of apology.

I wasn’t able to keep you near me, and to be honest I really want to apologise to you so bad, but guess what, I don’t have the strength to stand up and tell you everything I want to. My head is full of memories that include you and all the time we spent together, and your goddamn voice repeats over and over in my head. I wish I could be good enough for you. I wish I wasn’t so immature and such a fool. I really know now what it means to live without you by my side, I’d do anything to have you again and be with you, because I know, there’s nothing better than you out there, no one that could ever replace you. Because you.. You complete me. And that scares the hell out of me. And I’m.. I’m empty since you left me. I wish that you could read this someday, but I know that you will not. So could you.. maybe.. come back to me, please?

I FUCKING NEED YOU, CAN YOU HEAR ME? I’ll quit everything. E-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.